LAME

okay. I thought I was going to post more during the holiday from school. I actually haven't wanted to turn on a computer, but today I decided to watch some movie trailers while I checked up on some emails and other correspondences. I saw a trailer for a new G.I.Joe. SPOILER ALERT! My initial reaction to the trailer was one of optimism. As a child I loved playing with G.I. Joe action figures. most of them ended up going against my X-men toys who were riding dinosaurs and locked down in a huge fort made out of furniture. The G.I. Joes didn't stand a chance, lets just put it that way. The first movie did an okay job with the whole story, so how could this one be any worse? Well it looks like the producers knew that it was going to be worse than the first one because the synopsis of the sequel talks about how much money the first movie made. I'm no expert, but that doesn't seem like a synopsis. What it does seem like is a plow to convince people to watch this movie based solely on the monetary success of its brother. The action sequences look original enough (or at least re-creations of older sequences)I lost all interest in the movie as soon as Bruce Willis made a cameo appearance. How old is he? more importantly, who keeps hiring him for action movies? And lastly, what a sad gimmick. The movie (and its producers) aren't confident enough in the films merits that they need to hire someone and throw it in like some safety net to make sure that the movie isn't a flop. I was going to post the trailer, but it just bugged me enough that I decided not to. If you feel so inclined it is on apple trailers.

And on the 8th day God gave man language . . .

Usually I don't enjoy going to midnight showings of movies. I'm sure there was a time where this was appealing to me, but I'm afraid that I've grown a too old for this. When my friend informed me that we had tickets to see Sherlock Holmes I'll admit that I was excited. There were some great trailers. The new-and final-batman released a trailer which was thoroughly exciting. But I'll admit that my real joy came from from the movie itself. The first movie was so impressive, and I just loved the portrayal of Sherlock, and the way that he mentally worked through all the problems in his head before it actually happened. I also recently (and I mean before I moved out east) completed the series. I don't want to spoil the movie for anyone, especially since I'm writing this less than 30 minutes after getting out of it. I just love seeing how people navigate movies and literature. I love movies, they give something that books can't. I love books, they tell stories that movies never will be able to. If you haven't read any of the stories (they are short, people. go read them. it takes a few hours). They are so much fun, and many of you will know my mantra that language and especially writing is a God given gift that far too few people take advantage of, and most of them fail to develop. At this point I can feel my fingers getting tired, and I know that if I don't just post this soon that it will just start turning into ramblings, and other such nonesasnd,and sasodkntasjd, andu ,saslod, haha. good night.

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Titles are always the hardest thing to figure out...

Does anyone else agree? I always seem to have a lot to say, but finding a catchy title that will be informative enough to let the reader know what to expect, as well as short enough to not be overdrawn, is really one of the hardest parts. anyway, on to the writing.

One of my favorite memories growing up was the James Bond marathon that would happen on TV about this time of year. I love, even more that these movies--most of them--are rated PG. I just started watching Goldfinger, and James just grabbed a naked woman out of a bathtub, started making-out with her, and then used her as a human shield when some guy came at him with a club. Listen James. Maybe she was enjoying her tub. have you ever stopped to think about that? You might be a total womanizer, and probably syphilitic, but that is no excuse to use women as human shields. people who do that are jerks, even in the 1960s. and just since I've started writing this paragraph I've heard more misogynistic references then the writers of MadMen are able to come up in an entire episode...and that is saying something.

Alas I didn't want to write a play-by-play of Goldfinger. Go rent it if you want to know what happens.

I wanted to write about . . . you know what? I don't know. maybe that is why it was so hard coming up with a title?
I guess we'll just leave it at James bond for the night. I know I've got a few things I wanted to write down, but I think I better give it some thought and organize it first before I publish anything.

have a good night.

Things I love

Well today is the day of my last--and only--final. I'm pretty excited, but I'm seriously procrastinating by writing this. you know what? it doesn't matter. I need to write, and not read more about Freud's theory of penis envy, or lesbian scholars talking about how the only truly oppressed people are black lesbians, and that no one understands them.

On that note, let us commence with my list of things I love today.

-Feeding the Missionaries

I don't know what it is about these two, but I just love them. I try and have them over for dinner once every week or two, and if you ever want to feel like you're on top of the world, invite them over for dinner. THey were just so blown away (it kind of makes you wonder what other people feed them). Last night I made mashed cauliflower, Brussels sprouts, Rot kohl (red cabbage), and a pork roast, with hot apple cider. By the way, all of those things top my list of things I love, especially the red cabbage, and the mashed cauliflower.

-The cold side of the pillow

This really is probably the most comforting thing in the whole world.

-Christmas lights on campus

BYU used to put up lights on a few trees, but the severe lack of foliage in UT makes it a little difficult to really go-to-town. Creighton has the most extensive display, and I love it. it reminds me of when I lived in Germany, and the city would create a canvas of lights and drape it over the road. perfect. love it.

-Buffalo Wild Wings

for whatever reason we talk regularly of B-dubs in my graduate program. there are a few of us who just love it, and one of us who just can't stand it, but tonight after our test we'll most likely go and get wings, and play some amazing rounds of trivial pursuit. and on that note I should probably get some studying done.

Have a great day.

Everything i need to know i learned in Concert Choir: Abundance and Scarcity

"now stand up, slowly bringing your spine and neck and head out of the curve. Good. Feel the stretching, now imagine that a string running from your navel through your torso and up through your neck and past the top of your head is being pulled tight. Feel your chin drop, and your head elevate, and your shoulders being tugged backwards. Now breath in." The whole class simultaneously inhaled a deep breath, as if we'd calmly risen out of water after several minutes of holding our breath. "Breath in abundance" sister H would say in the reassuring welsh accent. "Now breath out, and exhale scarcity." Silently, as if any noise would ruin the moment all 100 students exhaled. "One more time, breath in abundance, and exhale scarcity. exhale all the stress of finals. exhale the problems with teachers, and breath in abundance. breath in the abundance." This was how we started class everyday, and everyday there was something new to add to the list of abundance, and everyday there was always something I was glad to exhale.

I'm actually thinking about writing a book with the title from this post because the more I think about it EVERYTHING I needed to learn about life was taught to me during those 5 terribly short hours each week.

The lesson today is abundance and scarcity. all of my anxiety, and stress, and fear comes not from any real problem that exists, rather it stems from my inability to exhale the scarcity and breath in abundance. I have this great gift of being able to analyze EVERYTHING, and the miracle of that gift is trumped by the fact that I can take this analysis and turn it into anxiety, not because there really is a problem but because I fill my mind with the what-ifs.

When I realized and actually thought about all the abundance I have in my life I've noticed that the void I've created by focusing on scarcity is filled immediately.

Why did it take me 4 years of choir, and two years after leaving it to understand the value in this lesson? maybe it had something to do with hearing it with the welsh accent. I don't know about anyone else, but English accents--and I mean any accent which comes from the Island nation of great Britain--carry a validity with them that makes whatever lesson that much more weighty and important.

Well when you all sit down tonight at the end of your day take a minute to try this. sit in a quiet place where you won't be disturbed and with every breath think about how much you have, of everything. There are experiences that no one else has ever gone through, books read, and thoughts developed that no one has ever contemplated, snow that no one has walked on, icicles which no one has touched, that cold part of the pillow on which no one has lain, and relationships which no one else has had.

and each time you breath out forget every time that you've felt insignificant, or not enough, or too short, or too fat, or the haircut that doesn't look good, or the person who dumped you.

I know that this is starting to sound like Maria VonTrapp in the Sound of Music, but I think it is still a valid point (man I love that movie, I think I'm going to watch it tonight.)

I was going to put a song on here from the BYU Concert Choir but I couldn't figure out how to add a media player, anyone know how?

I can't wait

Apart from that Baz Lurman (?) remake of Romeo and Juliet, there is nothing I like better then a retelling of an old story. Fortunately for me we have TWO versions coming out of the beloved Snow White. Let me first start by saying that one of these movies looks amazingly well done, and the other stars Kristin Stewart. :[



I'm really excited for this movie mostly because I love that julia Roberts looks amazing. She must sleep in a vat of preservatives because she is not aging, and she just looks really good. well played Julia, well played.
The other version, which does about as much for Snow White as Twilight did for vampires, looks just awful. apart from some pretty impressive special effects I just can't stand Kristin Stewart. I've seen rocks show more facial expressions then her.


I hope you all have a Merry Christmas. I'm really sorry that I haven't written more over the past few weeks. I'm a little tied up in final projects, but I promise to provide links to all my projects so you can see what has taken up all of my time.

Great Expectations Or How I was Disappointed by Hollywood . . . again

I feel like this should become a regular feature on my blog.

Last night I went and saw the new Muppet Movie. While I have a soft spot in my heart for the Muppets, this movie was pretty disappointing. Rotten Tomatoes gave it an almost unbelievably high rating. sad.

It was cute, there were certain things that touched my heart and made me feel like we were back in a golden age of muppets, but it fell short in so many ways that I actually wouldn't recommend it to anyone.

Problem 1. the movie is WAY too aware of its own insignificance. this movie points out, probably a dozen times- that the muppets have become irrelevant, and that no one wants to watch them anymore. This wouldn't bother me so much if it weren't also for the fact that they kept hinting at a muppet revival. I understand that it was just a cute way to carry the story, but there were enough cameo appearances to really make one wonder if they were going to bring back the Muppet TV show. They probably won't, so it was just a whole lot of empty promises and whining about how no one loves the muppets anymore.

Problem 2. They tried to fill the movie with too much. obviously, less is more. more is not more. The muppets are a musical tradition, but when you can only perform one verse of a song because you have to move on in order to get to each of the other songs that you're going to only sing one verse to, well it makes it a little hard to do anything justice.

Redeeming quality

Well it did have a very touching lesson, in fact there were several touching lessons that I took from the movie, but they were hard to articulate, especially when I'm so disappointed with the work as a whole.

Parking

I've been fortunate enough to drive quite a bit. Growing up in Utah I learned to drive at the age of 14 on a dirt road up to our ranch. At 19 I went to Germany and had the great fortune of driving on the Autobahn. at 23 I drove cross country twice. then at 27 I drove back east. After thousands of miles I like to think that I'm an aficionado when it comes to driving. People like to claim that Utahns are terrible drivers. they might have their flaws, but they're not. Californians are. at the very least the Californians who leave the state and invade others are the worst drivers, but even with that said Americans really struggle with the idea of the fast lane. Ideally you should always stay to the right-most lane, unless you are passing, but once you've passed then you are supposed to get right back over.

Now that you've all learned how to drive, lets talk about parking. Omahanians take the place for worst parkers on earth. I'm not sure what it is about those lines in parking lots but these people seem to be under the impression that these lines are mistakes--perhaps left by migrant workers during the initial paving of the are. As a result they park in whatever helter-skelter formation they see fit. How hard is it, and I'm asking this in all honest, to pull a car into a parking stall with adequate room on either side of the car to allow passengers to load and unload? for some people it must be impossible. Perhaps they're color blind and the yellow lines are indistinguishable from the black asphalt. Perhaps asphalt is a new invention here. I've noticed plenty of roads that aren't paved, so maybe the idea of asphalt covered lots where cars spend their idle time, is so new or foreign that they see these lines and are filled with the same apprehension I get when looking at texts in Mandarin Chinese. While all of these are possibilities, I'm much more inclined to think that it is just because they aren't paying attention when they park, which means that they probably won't notice if I were to write mean things with my keys into the body of their vehicle, maybe they wouldn't notice if someone sliced through the tubes with the brake fluid in them. I'm not admitting anything, and I'm certainly not condoning it, but lets get real. people who park their cars terrible deserve to have just a little somethin-somethin.

Did she really just say that?

I’m in need of some good ol’ cathartic ranting. Pop your vicodin people, because this could hurt.

Today, as I was getting ready to play some flag football with some friends, I sat down to talk to one girl—who was obviously not dressed for an athletic event, wearing knee high boots and jeans. She and I began talking about our academic careers. She now works in some aspect of law. Who can remember exactly what she does? I’ve decided to forget that detail.

Anyway, It turned out that this girl also had taken several literature classes.

As our conversation progressed we had a few laughs, and she—in her giddy joy of having someone talk to her—exclaimed “Seriously? How did the guy ask her out, I mean he was in the English Class” She implied that men who study English are undatable.

Well I’m glad that someone who is educated and well read is unable to be appealing to women. Obviously her taste in men has worked out well because she’s…oh wait, she isn’t in a relationship. When a girl shows up 30 minutes before an event –alone—she obviously doesn’t have a boyfriend. Not that this is a problem though. I’m sure it is part of everyone’s life goal to grow old and alone…after all, that is why God invented cats.

Good luck law lady. I hope you enjoy living alone—with cats—for the rest of your life. I originally thought you were appealing, but your little outburst proved that you couldn’t be interested at all.

I really should be asleep...

...but I just had a thought from the day. During my jog my Ipod suddenly stopped working. despite my efforts to reboot it just wouldn't do anything. Jogging without music is THE WORST. Anyway, once I got it fixed I was going through my Ipod and I rediscovered a ton of great music that I haven't listened to in forever. I'll see if I can find some videos of them over the next few days, and maybe I'll even find some of their songs. the problem is that I have this strange addiction for European Music/groups. I sort of enjoy listening to stuff that i know no one else will recognize or know. I hate having music get over-played. A lot of times when I get music from an American band I'll play it through a few times before I realize that it basically sounds like everything else they've been able to push through a mold.

Oh well. I keep looking, and I'm not finding anything I feel like posting, or that I feel would make anyone like my music. I'll try again tomorrow

narcissus.

Mythology is super cool! I don't know if anyone has had a chance to look through some of the stories, but they are full of great life lessons. Lets start with this one.

Narcissus was a young hunter. Apparently he was also super good looking, and was so good looking, in fact, that he didn't need anyone else. He cast aside all those that loved him, because when you are hot it is okay to be a jerk to people. Nemesis, the divine being of retribution (seriously how cool is this religion? they have a god for everything) decided that she was sick to crap of his pathetic attitude, so while he was off hunting in the woods she presented him with a pond. This pond was crystal clear and allowed him to see his own reflection, which as we know is super hot, and he became entranced by it. Minutes turned into hours turned into days, and pretty soon he died--because even good looking people need food, and his beautiful reflection was just not enough to keep him alive.

The lesson here is don't piss off Nemesis. HAHA I'm just kidding. The actual lesson has to do with the prophecy by some old man who said that Narcissus would live a long and fruitful life as long as he never knew himself. So the lesson is that Narcissus would have lived a great life, full of valuable relationships, if he had just been nice instead of vain.

I could ramble on and on about the linguistic and actual similarities between gyms, the male gender and hunting and animals. In an effort to be "more manly" we spend hours in gyms, mostly because our modern sedentary lifestyle doesn't allow us to obtain physical activity in any normal fashion. I bring up Narcissus only because there is a huge mirror along one whole wall of the gym. It is often helpful to look at yourself in the mirror if only to motivate you through a workout. I'll admit it. I totally stare into my own eyes to try and intimidate myself into working harder. Usually that is all. I honestly give it my best effort to not flex in front of the mirror and stare at myself.

I just think it is so funny how often people will stand in front of these mirrors--for really long times--and just stare at themselves flexing. not lifting weights. not in the middle of a workout. just flexing. I get that some of them have worked really hard for their bodies, more of them have probably just injected themselves with--what we'll call--sugar water. Meanwhile their relationships are languishing by the wayside.

One would think, based on our academic setting that more people would know the story of narcissus, but I guess I'm just being altruistic.

why has it been so long since my last post?

Honestly. I can't answer that question. One would think that being sick, and spending my days at home would have given me the time to write something. Alas, being sick also left me debilitatingly tired. I think I slept like 10 hours a day, and that didn't include the naps. The good news is that the fevers have subsided. The body aches are gone. I'm still sleeping a ton (which I love, and thank heavens for the whole -daylights savings time which gave me an extra hour of sleep last night). The only bad news is that my rose is running like one of those Marathon runners that flies all over the world just running. Alright, that was a terrible analogy, but my rose is running like crazy. How does my nose make so much snot? you know that terrible raw feeling your nose gets when you've used too many tissues? I'm totally feeling that.

I'm sure I could take some medication, but really I have a thing with medication. No I'm not one of those crazy people, but my experience living in Germany has taught me that sometimes you just need Tea and sleep.

This reminds me of another story about drug use.

I had a surgery a few years ago. The doctor needed to put me under, and he said that he was going to use the strongest sedative they had. I explained that I didn't need that. If the nurse would be nice enough to simply shake the bottle in front of my face I would pass out for the rest of the day. Well the doctor didn't believe me, and he used a huge sedative and I ended up sleeping for like 5 hours longer than what they had planned.

Long story short I don't have a great tolerance for meds, which knock me out. That is probably the reason that I didn't write anything last week was because I was strung out on cold meds

Enjoy the upcoming week.

I can't believe this is happening

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mary kay, I'd like to talk to you today. In all honesty, I didn't read the whole article. After looking at your picture where I can see your roots, as well as your remarkable lack of actual skin. To give you credit i did skim the article, I now like you even less.

I quote,

"But there is a silent majority out there, a hallowed out middle that is looking for a voice”

I think you meant hollowed, but I’m not totally sure. Do you really think that there is a sanctified silent majority looking for a voice? Because I’m pretty sure that the heir of a self made Billionaire and his wife—who looks like she has had more work done on her than Frankenstein’s monster—are not the best faces for that majority.

I’m not even sure that you are the face of silent, nay, vocal minority. Fine, I’ll admit that maybe, somewhere, hiding in the corners of the WWW is a support gropu or discussion board dedicated to children who’ve inherited billions and subsequently spent it on research to keep their trophy wives in the same pristine condition as a marble sculpture.

Bwahahaha. I’m just kidding. I’m sure you’re a nice person. I’m sure that having your daughters open a twitter account or post videos on youtube is really going to bring your husband up to the contending position for president.

What makes this whole article absolutely priceless, and I do mean PRICELESS is the fact that there is an advertisement at the bottom for Mitt.

I guess, good Luck Jon? I’m not really sure what to say, especially since the ad space for your article was bought out by someone who is actually contending for the republican bid.

It probably would look super trashy of you now, but I would say that you should have your wife tone it down a bit. Look at the great women we’ve had living in the White House, Jackie Kennedy Onassis (I could also go, but I won’t because it’s Friday and I just need to go to bed, but I do totally have a thing for Lady Bird Johnson-no I’m just kidding. That is the sleep deprivation talking.)

OHHHHHH OHH, OMG, I’ve got it. Jon your wife is more the Marilyn-type. She had her attractive side, but she was just way too fake to be the first lady.

The Journey

This might be one of the most personal posts I've put up here. I decided though, that I was going to post about my experiences in Omaha. I feel it would be lying to myself and to my readers if I only published the funny things while omitting the more serious or personal observations.

So this video is from a song that I love. I heard it a little over two years ago, and since then it has been the song with which I end my jog, always sprinting to my final goal with the beat of the music. The video itself is a little terrifying--so Happy Halloween--but the message is really inspiring, reminding me that everyone falls, but it is the getting back up and giving it another go that is important. Trust me, this will tie in with the main subject of my post tonight.

I was reading come critical theory today and came to Russian Formalism. This is a broad theory, but the one author was talking about the similar streams found in all folktales; things such as the maiden in distress, the king, the hut, the old crone, and the quest.

The Quest is this trope where our hero goes off to accomplish something and then return (or in some instances not return) to be the triumphant Hero we now him (or her) as today.

On this quest, our protagonist needs to go through certain changes. Ulysses can't rescue his wife if he hasn't learned a few things first. Gawain leaves camelot a cocky little jerk, but comes back a wiser, humble knight.

I think this is such an appealing trope, not because it is cute, or convenient, or you-fill-in-the-blank, but because it is the most like real life. Everything we do is a journey or a quest after something. Think back at your life for a minute, at least I can clearly see it in mine.

When you go on vacation, what clothes do you pack? Or, what clothes do you buy on vacation?

When you go to a job interview, how do you dress?

When you go on a date, how do you act?

The answer to all of these questions is probably that you do things different from what you would have normally. On vacation we wear clothes that we normally wouldn't, we buy sandals or shorts that we won't wear again. At the job interview we comb our hair a certain way because it presents a certain image. On our date we do things we don't normally do because we want it to be a success.

All of this shows that we are on a journey. We buy these different clothes on vacation because we want to feel like we are someone else. We dress a certain way for the job interview because we want to present to the employer someone that we might not be regularly. On the date we might not always eat food so slowly, but we do it because we want to leave a good impression.

It isn't that we are lying, or trying to be deceitful, we are just trying to present something that we want to be when we hit the end of the story.

I'm thinking about all the different Journeys that I'm on, or that I've been on. Moving to Omaha was a Journey--IS a journey. The entire drive over I thought to myself, "well I'm going to change from the mistakes I've made before. I'm not going to mess up this time, like I did in the past. This is a chance for me to completely revolutionize myself." There have been plenty of things that I've regretted doing/not doing. I've had countless roommates, and even more acquaintances that I've ruined. I know that I've ruined them. I can be a real jerk to live with. you'll have a clean house, but you might not like me afterward because I'm so particular. This is just one aspect of this journey. Lets see, some of the others are:

I hated having a teacher tell me that I just wouldn't make a good teacher. I decided I was going to be a better student in order to prove her wrong.

I've always hated not being in shape. Body image is something I get so stressed about, and even though I've always worked out I've never looked the way I wanted to, so I decided that I was going to change that.

I've hated that I've only kissed one girl, and that I got turned down for more dates then I can even count. So I decided that I was going to find me a nice girl, and have a relationship, and then maybe break up and have one or ten more.

I've hated that I somehow managed to ruin friendships with roommates because of petty issues, so I decided that I was going to try and serve.

Journeys aren't fun! They take a lot of work, and even more patience, and most of the time I don't have the patience to work till the end. I was telling B that I was frustrated that I felt like I was giving so much effort to working out, and I wasn't seeing results. I had a real pathetic moment in the gym where I almost dropped the weight on my head because it was just too heavy, but I was so fed up with not being as in-shape as the other guys, that I wanted to just keep going even if it meant dropping the weight through my skull. I hate feeling like I put hours and hours in for homework, and still it doesn't make any difference on my test scores.

I probably could go on and on, but i won't. The fact is this is a journey. I'm the protagonist, and I accepted a HUGE challenge. Although it is rough, and a lot of work, it isn't all bad. Gawain had small victories along the way. I've had small ones as well. I might not have done as well on my test as I feel I deserved, but my paper is polished to perfection, and I'm submitting it to a conference tomorrow. I'm back up to running a really long way, and I might not be at my target weight yet, but I'm still losing. . . slowly. I might not be the best roommate, but at least as far as I can tell I haven't made anyone want to move away, or have me move out of the house.

The Journey isn't over. It really is just still at the beginning. If I were Gawain I would still be able to see Camelot. If I were Ulysses I would still be standing on the beach of Troy.

I'd like to issue a challenge. I don't care if you even let me know, but what is your journey? Figure it out, and don't avoid it. face it head on and just go.

It must be morning...

Cartoons portray morning as this glorious time where "Call to the Crows" from Rossini's William Tell plays magestically while rays of light cast a warm porange (thats my word for pinkish-orange. copyright) glow over the world. Animals wake up, rub their eyes and everyone begins to have a jolly good time together. Cute. No, really its cute, but it is so far from reality.

I've been up for more then an hour, and I haven't seen a hint of porange anywhere. gray would be the prevalent color outside. Also, mornings aren't as tranquil as I think most people believe. Before the sun was up a strange character known as medicus studentius of the dentus genus was already moving about. For those of you who don't speak latin this term refers to the elusive creature known as the Creighton Dental student. They were moving about and getting ready long before the sun came up. most of them hop in their cars and drive to campus well before the sun comes up. it is oddly reminiscent of vampires fleeing to their coffins in the morning. Oh well.

I also haven't heard anything by Rossini. Ya know what, forget it. forget Rossini. I would be completely content with a little Enya, or even silence (although Rossini would be a welcome change to the general clamor of the morning). B is an early-morning kind of guy. I have no problem with that, in fact it sort of acts as a reminder that I'm going to have to wake up in a few hours (This puts his wake up time in the 6:30 range, while mine is often closer to 10 AM. I'm lazy, whatcha gonna do about it?). The alarm clock on his phone reminds me of a song that I've only been able to remember while dreaming. Once I'm awake and conscious I can't even think of what his alarm clock sounds like, but when I'm asleep I hear it, I recognize that I hear it, and that I'm asleep and dreaming, and suddenly my dream takes a frantic turn (ohhhh like inception) and I'm on a quest to figure out what the song is. This morning I got one step closer. I've figured that it is a contemporary piece. I'll keep you posted.

What other noises are there?

Well there is the dog that lives upstairs, whose rhythmic snoring once terrified me because it sounded like a portal to Hell that was waiting to swallow me, but now it is kind of tranquil and helps me fall asleep like waves lapping against the side of a boat. He stops snoring around 3 AM and begins what I believe can only be a demonic dramatization of the Indi 500 where he runs around the room--his little nails clawing at the wood floor--for the rest of the night. It's terrifying. Much in the same way that I think it was terrifying for Roderick Usher to hear his buried-alive sister in the basement.

speaking of pits of hell. From my bed I can clearly hear the central air kick on. when the heater starts it makes a "click-click-click" noise until the gas catches fire and then the fan kicks on. This little symphony sounds something like this... click-click-click-proush-BHAAAAHROOOOOOOOM. its kind of exciting.

Also I'm not sure how many people live above me, but they must be terribly sleep deprived. They are up super late, and then get up super early. They are also loud. Those of you that know me might be thinking "well, this is the pot calling the kettle black!" Yes I'm loud, but nothing like this. I've been privy to all of their conversations, and lets just say that I know of a marriage that is on the rocks because someone forgot to "microwave dinner" while someone was getting their nails done. I sort of want to go microwave something for them, and just put it on their doorstep, but I think that would freak them out more than help.

Anyway, its morning, and I'm now awake, so I figured I'd write a little something.

Great Expectations Or How I was Disappointed by Hollywood--the Halloween Edition

My usual morning routine consists of cereal (with a schmeck of granola) maybe a glass of a NAKED fruit drink, and a little catching up with HULU on what happened last night on television. This morning, as I was preparing my cereal, HUlU's scrolling menu informed me that "Bram Stoker's Dracula" was available. I love all thing Gothic! I've even started this movie several times, but I usually fall asleep about ten minutes in. The thought of Winona Ryder and Keanu Reeves playing british people actually terrifies me. I'm never one to turn away from a good scare so I decided to give it another go.

I often wonder if te people who made this movie have ever actually read Dracula. I highly doubt it.

Besides Winona's terrible acting my favorite part has to be the funny faces that Keanu makes while trying to speak with an accent. He actually contorts his face when he speaks--probably because he knows that everyone is waiting for him to mess up. Anyway, for those of you thinking to watch it, I would say proceed with caution. They take a lot of artistic liberty with the story. watch maybe ten minutes, turn it off, and then come and ask me how the movie should have gone from there.

TSA

So I don't fly a whole lot. I know that there are jobs that require individuals to fly on an almost weekly basis, and I know that there are people who enjoy taking trips often enough that they really don't spend money on anything else. I encountered someone at the airport who fit into this category. He was a few people in front of me in the line to go through the body-scan thing. I was a little surprised when I got through the scanner and he was still waiting for his luggage. As I was putting on my shoes I could hear the TSA agent ask whose bag had the razor blades in it.

After being interrogated by the TSA--for what I believe was the shortest slap on the wrist for packing razor blades onto a plane--he came and sat next to me. I then learned how inconvenient these TSA regulations are because he has to buy new hair gel every time he flies. Being the polite and well mannered individual that I'm known for, I just listened to him complain, knowing full well that I had a blog i could come and write on. SOOOO. to you mr. Frequent-Flier I say, REALLY? Really. you fly so regularly, and yet somehow, somehow you've managed to not learn a lesson. We have regulations so that every plane doesn't turn into a bullet filled with human shrapnel. Besides, I had a 3.25 ounce deodorant in my bag (the regulation is that liquids have to be under 3 ounces) and I didn't get pulled over into a full body scan. I think the real problem was that you had a PACK OF RAZORS IN YOUR BAG. I understand that it must be hard going on a business trip and needing to shave. I don't have this problem. If I challenged a class of 5th grade boys...no 4th grade boys to a beard growing contest, they would all be in the 6th grade before I could grow a beard...oh and they would also all have grown beards sometime during their 5th grade year. Obviously I don't have to shave a whole lot. I shaved once before I left on my trip, and had a little stubble 4 days later. However, I don't think that you, Mr. Frequent-Flier, are any different. my experience has been that, although I can't grow a beard faster than most 10 year olds, I do grow beards faster than my asian friends. I'm sure you'd be fine going several days without a razor, and I really don't think your little outburst is going make a whole lot of difference, so just keep it to yourself--or go get a blog.

i love planes

So this morning I got on a plane from Omaha to head back to UT. I love planes. There is something great about the feeling of going hundreds of miles an hour and flying over the world. it is awe-inspiring to have such an expansive view of the world, and yet it is completely intimate because you can still make out details and famous landmarks. As our plane flew over Provo Ut I could clearly see the buildings on campus where I spent most of my undergrad, and I could even see the remnants of the tabernacle where i used to sing.

However i'm getting ahead of myself. The real reasons I lov flying are all the little things, and I do mean little. What airline executive tested out the chairs and said, "well these are just too big, there is just an inordinate amount of room. we don't want them thinking they've become members of the leisure class. For heavens sake! see if we can't jam in 2 or 7 more rows on this aluminum contraption." And that my dear readers, was the day that claustrophobia came into being.

I actually do love the little drinks, it is just enough to quench your thirst, but not enough to make you need to pee--which is a total blessing because the last thing i want to do with 100+ people watching me is go to the bathroom.

I also love the little stewardess. That might sound insensitive, but it isn't. She was a cute older asian-american with big glasses and a scarf showing her awareness of breast cancer. There was something about her personality that I think was getting on some peoples nerves (I don't think I've ever seen so many eyes roll so far into the back of peoples heads before). She, however, did not bother me. We totally got along, and I completely understood why she was repeating herself, especially to "frequent fliers"--People don't listen. It doesn't matter how many times you've flown an airplane, there is no fine print that allows you to disregard the rules because you know better, there is also no excuse for you to assume that your small coffin you have in tow is anything close to carry-on size. If these people would just listen from the get go my cute Asian-American-breast-cancer-aware stewardess wouldn't need to keep repeating herself at the top of her lungs.

back to the chair situation. I was able to book the last seat with extended leg room. I was all set to enjoy my flight when a woman came and sat next to me. I'll just come right out and say it, she was morbidly obese, and with the seatbelt extended to its furthest possible limits it was an amazingly tight fit. if the air marshall had seen this take place i'm sure he would have done something.

Here is my deal. I honestly do have a problem with tight spaces, so flying isn't the best fit for me, however it only makes matters worse when someone's back and sides are flopping over into my space.

I don't fault her for being overweight. while I don't believe in the "its my genes" argument I'll admit that the food available to almost all of society is nutrient deficient. What I do fault her for is the ensuing conversation we had. (transcript to follow)

lady: I'm sorry do you have enough room?

me: Oh yes thank you! (glancing politely, acknowledging presence, but said with the subtle anxiety which often accompanies claustrophobic anxieties).

Lady: Oh good, cause on my last flight the skinny lady next to me kept hitting her elbow into my side, and I was like GOSH you've got plenty of room, I'm stuck here next to the window and the wall.

me: (said something, that probably came out as an awkward sympathy laugh, but it also could have sounded like I was swallowing live fish...i'm not really sure at this point because I started to notice a bad stench that was a culmination of body odor and the stinky baby behind me).

While I feel bad that this woman has such a hard time fitting into normal seats it is certainly not the fault of "the skinny lady" who paid handsomely for her three cubic feet of space. If you are going to spill over outside of your space then you should probably be paying for it as well.

Anyway, i hope you all have a great day. My siblings are all here, and I haven't seen them or their kids in way too long. I'll write soon

the gym

Don't you love when you are writing something, and suddenly everything you've worked so hard to come up with just feels incorrect? I do. it is always a funny experience to think that whatever you were writing was truly substantial. several sentences before i was finished, and ready to hit publish the though came to me, "really? really, this is what you're going to post? for the whole world to see? lets not be so juvenile, if people wanted to hear the mumblings of what obviously was written by an emotional teenager, then they would go find a coffee house within 5 miles of a high school and listen to poetry."

I realized that is very much NOT the effect I wish to have on my blog, although there will always be space for emotional reminiscences, if there are too many of them no one will want to read it. Life is too short to always be covering it with rain clouds (Did you know that word can be hyphenated? Rain-clouds. huh, who knew?).

After that little realization I decided to erase what I'm sure was several pages and start over, A N D here we go.

Recently I've been going to the gym and lifting weights with my roommate B. B, though probably half my size is ripped like a freakin' tank. With an ample dose of humility he encourages me to continue lifting, even though it is embarrassing to the Nth degree to have to remove all the weights he puts on the bar and just lift the bar itself. What I laugh at is gym culture. I'm sure that if i decided to get a PhD. in anthropology, or biology or something else, then I could make a great dissertation about the role of the Alpha Male.

For those of you not really familiar with this, there are certain herd of animals where it is mostly women with a dominant male. This male drives off all the baby males early on in order to prevent them from stealing his women. Eventually he will be overthrown and some new pup will step in and take over.

never in my life have I seen more people vying for the role of Alpha male then at the gym.

Just last night we were getting to the end of the workout. Now we try and mix things up, and provide a little bit of variety. B says this is to help the muscles (but he could tell me it is because there is a ghost in the room that will attack anyone who uses the same machine too often, and I would believe him. I'm pretty naive. the real reason is probably that he is stronger than I am, and is sick of being stuck at the same weight level I am). after 12 sets of Triceps and 11 of chest we were ready to finish our last bench press. We lowered the weight on the bar and just decided to do 50 reps. My arms were shot, and this seemed like an exceptionally high goal, so I took the bar (remember, you can't get any lower weight then a bar) and I struggled to get through with ten. I decided I would just keep going in sets of ten while B threw more weight on his bar and was working for 100.

On about rep 25 I noticed, out of the corner of my eye, that someone was standing off to the side watching me. My anxiety levels jumped through the roof. not only was I already feeling self conscious about ONLY lifting the bar, but now I had an audience. I decided to pay him no heed. Eventually I made it to rep 40, and he was still there starring. As I started my way to rep 45 I lost it. With a look akin to Norman Bates or some other fictional serial killer, I turned my face and starred directly at him, and making eye contact. I'm sure the 45 lbs bar, and the blood rushing to my face contributed, but I've never seen anyone get so flustered in my life. he quickly fumbled with a dumbbell and started his workout.

Listen Alpha Male! i understand that you've been at this whole, gym, thing for a very long time. I'm impressed that you can lift so much weight, but if you think starring at me is going to make your workout go any faster you're wrong. Also, I'm the king-do you hear me-the king of awkward (please note the blog post titled Ebony and Ivory).

Is this a common occurrence in gym culture, this-eyeing-people-up-and-down? Shouldn't they maybe be more encouraging like the trainers on the Biggest Loser? I don't see Jillian casting disparaging glances at those trying to get in shape. I do see fear, but that is a different story. Anyway Gym Monkey, unless you want me to go all-Norman-Bates on you, I suggest you get back to your own workout.

This took me way longer to write than I thought. Wish me luck as I finish my paper for school.

Because I can't watch this without crying

I love the city corespondent Stefon. There is something about the way he describes things that makes me feel like every club he suggests is actually a real place. enjoy

What I'm sure will be the end of me.

I like to think of myself as an outdoors kind of guy. I’ve always loved going camping, and hiking, horseback riding, and toilette papering (those are especially good times). I even prefer to go jogging outside. Running on a treadmill is so monotonous—except for that 1 minute when you hope off and walk somewhere and you feel like you’re going a million miles an hour. I decided this morning to go jogging early instead of waiting to do it in the evening and it was probably the worst decision I could have made, not because I was attacked, or I stepped in poop, simply because I was able to see all the wildlife around me (Wildlife is an overstatement. The zoo is completely obscured by trees). There were spiders everywhere. I think I’ve only seen a few minutes of the movie Arachnophobia, but it was enough to convince me that if I’m not careful in eradicating pests then they will multiply faster than a herd of bunnies and make it their soul purpose to hunt me down.

How are there so many spiders in Omaha, and more importantly, why are they so huge? If I wake up one morning and I’m dried out like a husk of corn, just know that I enjoyed my run but that the spiders followed me home and sucked me dry.

Ebony and Ivory

I should say that I actually just threw this together and haven't even proof-read it because I seriously need to do homework.

I really should be doing homework, but if I have to read another page of Sigmund Freud then I will probably hang myself, and this has nothing to do with some infantile urge to sleep with my mother—as he would argue—it really just has to do with the fact that I’m bored. I did get only little gem from him which I will carry with me the rest of my days, “I’m not afraid of you, I defy you, I have a penis.” I don’t really know when I’m going to be presented with an opportunity to incorporate that into conversation in polite company, but I guess that is what blogs are for.

I’m a very reserved person. I enjoy looking my best, reading a book, having political and spiritual discussions with those around me, and basically living the way I imagine gentlemen did in the 17^th and 18^th century. I might even go as far as to say that I want to be Dr. Frasier Crane. His vocabulary amazes and astounds me.

Very rarely do I find myself wanting to break out of my civilized mode, but I’ve developed a theory thanks to my friends C and S.

C and I are two pees in a pod, and went so far as to describe us as Ebony and Ivory. He being the pasty white and string-bean shape I’ve come to associate with animal tusks, while I’m the obviously more sultry, opulent and darker ebony. He took offense to this, and I’m not so sure if it was because someone realized that his general shape does remind one whitewashed bean stalks, or because he wanted to be ebony. After some quick thought I realized that he was in fact ebony—at least on occasion. C manages to keep his ebony locked in a cell somewhere inside of his soul. I imagine that it looks something like Diana Ross with big wild hair. Occasionally Mrs. Ross pull one over on the guards—probably through the use of promised goods such as clothing or pastries. As she clubs them over the head—with what I assume would be animal tusks because when you are that white on the outside I’m sure you’re just bursting with stores of ivory—I can see her making a break from the cell. As she sprints up stairs to get to the entrance she grows louder and louder until at last she explodes in a giant flamboyant mess screaming and singing and gyrating all over the place.

Never does this happen within the confines of C’s home or anywhere closer to privacy. This inevitably happens in someplace public where children are present. While it causes some trepidation among families they should probably be grateful that C’s inner mrs. Ross escaped when she did, because it allows that to sit down with their children and answer the question, “mommy what’s wrong with that guy?”

Disclaimer- C, I love you, you are hilarious. S. I’m so impressed with where you’re at in your life. The pics I saw of you while FB stalking where just amazing. You’ve really gone through an impressive transformation and I love you for that.

Mrs. Ross, please don’t sue me.

Great Expectations Or How I was Disappointed by Hollywood

This is actually one that I've been working on for a while, but reading critical theory has sort of gotten in the way of other pursuits. Enjoy

I’m a total geek. I have a little addiction with old legends and myths. Some of the stories give me a sense of fulfillment. Maybe it is that history is just so cool, and maybe it is just that there is a bone—somewhere on my right leg I think—that really like objects of fantasy. The thought that the Ark of the Covenant really shoots out some red lightning that makes the Nazis dissolve, or that the city of Shangri La really is hidden in the mountains and all our science hasn’t gotten us any closer to it, frankly fills my heart with joy.

Obviously I was excited to see that the SyFy channel made a show called Legend Quest where the host goes on adventures discovering the actual objects of antiquity and fantasy that make that bone in my leg feel all happy.

For those of you not familiar with SyFy it is a channel on basic cable that basically produces more movies than Bollywood. They are a refuge for actors with struggling careers and writers with a terrible sense of plot development. Furthermore, I feel like most of their movies are basically some type of Fanfiction. Fanfiction is when people become so obsessed with a character, or a book, or a movie that they decide to continue because it just didn’t offer them enough of an escape.

I digress.

So Legend Quest basically follows an over-excited Australian (I honestly don’t know where he is from and this was my cheap attempt to geographically place someone based on their accent) as he goes around with his producer (who is way to good looking to be a producer…you know that she is just producing TV shows to fill in her time in between modeling gigs) and his little Sherpa/cameraman. They travel all over the world in search of artifacts. Most of them he never actually finds. What little exploration there is has been parceled out between long segments of him yelling (obligatory veins bulging from his temples) and making wild accusations based on cursory observations that generally seem to lead him to Area 51. If he does seem to get close to it then he stops because of all the red tape he’d have to go through in order to continue. Oh, and meanwhile his producer/model is screaming at him to be careful, filling the entire show with some sexual tension you think can only be resolved by them making out on a pile of gold doubloons with skeletons from every major military campaign lay strewn about.

SyFy, you disgust me. I was so excited for this show, and it turned out to be just real crap. I’m fine with you producing crappy made-for-TV-movies, but if’ you’re going to make a show like this you should probably get the necessary permits so you can go digging up Indian burial grounds.

Happy Birthday

Well, I can't believe it has been two weeks since I've posted anything on this blog. I guess school has taken over my life. Yesterday was my birthday, and I don't know what it is about birthdays but I don't feel they carry the same charm they did when I was a child. Maybe it was because I had class from 6-9 pm, or maybe it has to do with the fact that I'm not as close to friends or family as I would have maybe preferred. But even with that it was a special day just because I felt completely blessed because;

I went jogging-I don't get to go jogging much anymore. Crossfit involves a lot more rowing, but at last count I have 12 HUGE popped blisters on my hands because of those workouts. I figured I better give them a break and let them heal. I also went mostly to just feel connected to my cousins who ran a Ragnar race this past weekend. I'm so proud of you guys, and I promise to be there next year.

It rained, and this somehow changed the entire makeup of our weather here. Now we have a taste of Autumn in the air. Although that actually might sound depressing, to anyone who knows me they will remember that I generally don't like hot weather. For me, Fall and Winter are the best times of the year because I get to wear sweaters and coats (and I can avoid ironing shirts except for at the cuffs and collars :) ).

Mass-Right on campus we have a gorgeous cathedral with bright blue and red stained glass windows in it. Today was the mass of the Holy Spirit, a jesuit tradition for at least the past 500 years. It was so beautiful to gather with much of the student body and to pray for the Lord to bless us in our academic endeavors. This didn't make up for the lack of a fathers blessing, but we're all a little spread out, so I guess I'll have to wait till Christmas to see my parents. It was a beautiful service, and was led by the President of the University. AS we walked out we all got the opportunity to shake his hand, and for most people he was just saying "thanks for coming" but for me he complemented my tie, and my fedora. (This guides me back to my last point. Fall is the best time of year). He might not know what kind of scholarly work I've produced for his school, but he loves my ties, and that is all that matters.

To end the day--and really the last great blessing I'll talk about here--I got a call from the movers, and my new mattress will be here in the morning. For my birthday my parents helped me buy a king size mattress. Some of you might scoff at this and wonder why I need something so huge. Remember that I'm freakin, tall and sleeping is almost an olympic sport for me--I move around a lot. THis has been hampered by 6 years of sleeping on twin sized mattresses. you don't know how uncomfortable sleep can be until you realize your feet can touch the floor while hanging off the foot of your bed while your pillow and head are still at the other end.

As I type this I realize that it isn't the presents that make me happy on my birthday--as it was when I was a child. It is knowing that I have people around me who love me, and seeing the little blessings all around that I know are for me. Most people hate the fall and the cold, but the Lord gave me that yesterday, and I might not be home with my family, but he has placed me here in a great place in Omaha where I've made a lot of friends, and he's given me Facebook. each and every post by someone brings back a flood of memories.

I hope that anyone reading this will find value in my life lesson, and be able to say that tomorrow is going to be the first day of the rest of their life where they find and appreciate the little blessings the Lord throws our way.

Happy birthday to me, and Happy Start-of-the-rest-of-your-life-day to you.

and here is a second gift to my readers. I hope you enjoy this video because it always makes me laugh

The Crossfit Experience

So this week I started at a new gym. As many of you know, several months ago i started with the Crossfit training program. It was amazing, there were so many aspects of it that just made it completely worth it to me. Because of school and vacations and the hassle of moving out of state I had very little time to actually go to the gym, and as a result I stopped my membership. It was rough.

One of the first things I did when I moved here was get a grasp on where the closest Crossfit was going to be. When I found it I set up a time to get started.

My first workout was only six minutes. it involved rowing, situps, push ups, squats, and pullups. When I was done I could feel my stomach turn and wrench. IT WAS AWESOME.

Today was workout 2 and I'm terrified to think about how in pain I'm going to be tomorrow.

THe workout involved 20 kettle ball swings, 40 push presses, and 60 squats. you do that all 3 times.

When I got home I just sat cradling the garbage in my hands because I knew I wouldn't make it to a bathroom if I needed to throw up.

Quick side note, I totally get the irony of my posting this RIGHT AFTER i posted one about models throwing up in the mall, but I think there is a difference. Let me explain.

I don't like throwing up, and I avoid it at all possible costs. So just going and throwing up is hard for me to comprehend because I really love food too much. Now, feeling like you're going to throw up after a killer workout is different because for me I know that I gave it my-absolute-all. I know that the next time I step up to the kettle Ball I won't drop it, and I won't need to stop and I'll get to push myself to a new level.

Anyway the short of it is that I love Crossfit. for any of you trying to lose weight PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE look into this. if it doesn't work for you, then you can move on and try and find something else. If it does work for you then you can drink deeply from the Koolaid like I have and completely enjoy it.

Models at the Mall

Because of the ample space I have in my jeep I was able to bring all of my earthly possessions…wait…nope…no, that isn’t correct. Jeeps have terrible storage options and really you can only bring the necessities. This meant that it was important that I go buy new clothes. Also, I lost weight and when pants are several sizes too big you start getting that frumpy pleated look, even though you specifically bought pants WITHOUT pleats.

Anywho. I walked into one of Omaha’s many fine shopping establishments and noticed a giant stage with people walking back-and-forth across it as if … I don’t know, but it looked funny. I realized that this was some type of model show/talent search. I generally love these things, in fact AGT is one of my favorite shows because I like watching people perform almost as much as I like British people telling us we shouldn’t/can’t.

My problem with these venues is that it totally encourages unrealistic appearances. I saw several people—men—who were way taller than me, but who weighed as much as my dinner plate last night. They were overly bronzed and quaffed. Even with all of their makeup and stuff they just looked sick. I soon realized why. I could smell vomit. EVERYWHERE. I tried walking away and several stores down and I couldn’t get past it. That is my biggest problem with model culture. Trust me. The skinny jeans aren’t that cute that I want you to kill yourself to fit in them. A nice set of slacks would do just fine.

The biggest problem for me sort of lies in the fact that this was a mall. Who wants to go shopping and smell vomit? I also don’t want to go shopping and smell Hollister or A&F, but that is all a different story.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this one. In fact, I don’t think I had an end goal in mind at all. Maybe this was just an observation

My New Place

So housing is a total pet peeve of mine. Student housing is the worst, it seems like you never actually get what you sign up for, and you end up with a real dump that has more mold on it than a penicillin dish. Finding housing out in Omaha was a total chore. First, it isn’t like provo where EVERYTHING is made for students and you can just sign a lease with a friend. No, this was legit housing. I needed to find a person who was renting a room, and this leads me to my second support for the chore status. Not only are you trying to find a place, but you are people shopping. You need to find people that are compatible with you.

I took a real gamble moving where I did, I’d pulled the trigger and the chamber was empty, but to be TOTALLY honest I was waiting for a bullet to blow my brains against a wall. When I first pulled up I almost left my car packed—just in case something better magically presented itself. I decided against this approach mostly because it is ridiculous, and also because I thought it would be temporary and I’m always in the mood for an adventure. Besides it would give me good fodder for my blog.

Let me just skip all the buildup and say that I love my roommates. We have a great dynamic and I feel we get along really well. (odds are they are sitting at home thinking the exact opposite, but this is my blog so deal with the lack of their opinions). No all kidding aside, we really do get along great. B is studying to be a dentist and M is in conflict resolution. The other night we went out to dinner in downtown Omaha. I won’t tell you the whole story because it is long and vulgar, but lets just say it involved a foul mouthed troll, a novelty gift shop/possible sex den, some fellow shoppers and their baby, and our escape. The sign was misleading. We thought it was a candy store. It wasn’t.

These two have made my time in Omaha a blast. When I first got here I was thinking it was going to be totally temporary, but now that I’ve met them I realize that it isn’t difficult to make friends when they are as great as these two. B is really funny and is always thinking of others and ways to serve them. M loves just taking care of people and cleaning and actually having a house instead of just a place to sleep. I hope that this is a friendship that will last well beyond out time as students.

The Lord will provide

Well I have to say that when they showed up I got a call at 6 AM from PODS I was a little annoyed. They just needed to verify that I had signed everything before they could unload my storage container.

As I stood out in the early morning—the sun beginning to creep over the Wasatch mountains—I realized that my time of procrastination was done and I needed to pack up and move. I wasn’t ready for the angst and anticipation associated with this move. I figured it would be easy to pack my things off and trek eastward. I hadn’t anticipated the fear I felt as I would be leaving all the great relationships I’d built. Dinner the night before with my friends certainly wasn’t making this any easier. How would I get along without these people. We’d sat by each other in church, we’d gone to FHE together and laughed at hilariously campy British TV shows, and we’d even spent our nights studying at Sonic Burgers.

I might seem social, but I am really shy, and it is often the most difficult thing to get me out of my comfort zone and get me making new friends.

I tried diligently to pack, but it still just wasn’t happening. I don’t know why. I think my abilities to organize and clean are rivaled only by my ability to procrastinate everything. Fortunately Sunday came. No work should be done on the Sabbath. One more day of not having to pack.

I drove up to visit some family friends before the serious packing began. When I came out of their house my car was missing. Needless to say, I was slightly shocked. This was the car I needed to drive to my new home. How was I going to drive anywhere without a car? Furthermore, What happened to my car?

We ran out into the road and noticed that it was in someone’s driveway. I felt so relieved that it hadn’t been stolen, but my relief was quickly replaced by sheer terror as I noticed that there were other cars already in the driveway.

I wish somehow that I could diagram what a terrible scene of carnage I saw before me. Their driveway was occupied by three vehicles. My jeep had smashed into the second—completely crushing the entire area known as the trunk—and knocked that vehicle into the third, and then both of them into the house.

My rear taillight was askew.

This was not necessarily what I needed before I made a cross country trip. AS my mother said, “perhaps the Lord needed me to be in an accident,” and I think he did. My jeep made it all the way here without any problems. When I got to Omaha the frame holding my spare tire on snapped. I took this as a sign that the Lord was watching out for me. It could have happened at anytime, but it happened right when I was home with access to a welder.

This was my sign from the Lord that everything was going to be all right with school. Whatever apprehensions or reservations I had about coming here were minimal, just like my tail light. Whatever real problems happened would be taken care of quickly.

The Story of James

Last night as I was packing a few items up in my car from my office, james wished me luck and congratulated me for having found what I wanted to do and for getting accepted into the program I wanted.

James is the divorce attorney that works in the building I did. If you are thinking about divorce, this is the guy to go to. He is one of the best. Besides being a great attorney we actually think that he suffers from asperger’s syndrome and possibly schizophrenia. There are a lot of times where he is super awkward. He talks to himself in his office, and often doesn’t talk with anyone else. In fact, by the time I worked at the office for six months he’d actually never said anything to me. Our first conversation happened just a few months ago.

After all my applications for law school had been turned in, I waited—perhaps less than patiently. One by one I got dropped from each one. I had two schools left to hear from, and I was getting nervous. I had prayed a lot that I would get into law school because I sincerely felt like that was what I was supposed to do with my life. I decided to fast and my parents decided to join me. I figured that was the least I could do for something so important for my future. That morning as I was getting ready for work I was actually writing a talk for church. As I was writing I realized that I loved teaching. I loved writing and preparing lessons, but I actually loved giving them more.

I needed to go into work early in order to get a few cases prepared, and I honestly didn’t expect to see anyone else there because no one shows up that early at our office. To my surprise james came walking in and started talking to me. I was a little taken back, but he just said, “are you sure you want to go to law school?” I thought so. He told me that if I didn’t just love law then I shouldn’t do it. To be completely honest, I really thought I loved law, but I had worked in the field for a year and didn’t really love it. I did it because I needed to, but it wasn’t as rewarding as I thought it would be, and besides the great stories I’d gleaned, I didn’t get much more than that out of it. He asked me if there was something more I just loved to do and I thought about English, and teaching, and writing. James informed me that if he could do it all over again he wouldn’t choose law. In fact he would have gone into the film industry working for Sundance.

On his recommendation I got in contact with the graduate school at Creighton. I had applied there a year before, but wasn’t sure if I really wanted to study English, so even though I got accepted I turned it down for the prospect of studying law. They wrote me back and told me that I didn’t need to reapply, because they’d been so impressed with me that they would just make a place for me in the upcoming class—if I wanted it. I did.

James might not ever read this, but the Lord answered my prayers through him. I’m grateful.

I think that book might be a little racy.

I just want to start by saying thanks to Sal for her help with this one.

The transition that happens between the written word and the silver screen is often a rough one. There are just things that don’t go very well between the two mediums. I started reading a book that had been a TV show. I figured that the TV show would put a lot more smut in than the TV show than in the book. I was wrong. I put the book down after several pages and was really disappointed.

One can only imagine how skeptical I was when I started reading an epic call Game of Thrones. It was recently made into a tv show on HBO. Before I even downloaded the free sample I asked as many people as I could what their thoughts were. I was informed that the TV was without comparison more inappropriate than the book. I decided to download the free sample and see where it took me. I made it almost 300 pages into the free sample and felt just fine about the book.

I then found out that the book for the musical Wicked is way more sexually graphic than the musical. How do you make the Wizard of Oz sexual? The first thought that came to my mind was of Kristin Chenowith (I have no idea if that is spelled right, and I have no desire to look it up) walking around as Glenda the good witch, if by good you mean slutty. She’d probably be wearing pink frilly underwear with knee high stripper boots-just like David Bowie used to wear. On top of all that she would be using three or seven bump-its to maximize the size of her hair and there would be ribbons, lots and lots of pink ribbons. This doesn’t sound attractive at all, and yet this exactly what you hear advertized during Halloween, and it is really the only way I can imagine someone making Oz sexy. Maybe they were all just going to some themed party at a gay bar? Who knows. Either way it sounds like Glenda might have some serious daddy issues.

If someone has read that book, please don’t tell me about it. I’m actually not interested in Wicked, I just thought it would be funny to see where that train of thought went.